so cheap, but I couldn’t come up with anything else.”
 
Hearing Fuyu-kun’s words, I felt relieved—I felt happy, so happy that I wanted to spin around in joy.
Fuyu-kun spent a bunch of time thinking about something to get me.
On top of that, in the end, he was the one that made the final choice on what to give me.
I was in a state of bliss.
 
“Fuyu-kun, could you open it for me?”
 
I was never going to let go of his hand.
Obviously, part of the reason I didn’t want to let go was because of my breathing.
But, more importantly, I just didn’t want to be separated from Fuyu-kun, even for a moment.
He smiled wryly and began opening it up.
What came out was a phone strap with a white cat on it.
Plus, it was a character that I liked, one that I often used on LINK.
 
“This is…..”
“Well, it’s because we’ve been contacting each other a lot lately.
I thought that it might serve as a good luck charm.
I even prayed to Lulu, hoping for your attacks to not be as bad.”
 
(I want to hug Fuyu-kun right now)—Somehow I managed to restrain my impulses. 
 
(I’m so happy, I’m so happy.
If I slip up for even a moment, I won’t be able to control my emotions anymore, and I’ll start crying tears of happiness.
But I know that, if I do, Fuyu-kun will be worried about me, so I’ll do my best to suppress my emotions.)
 
Fuyu-kun attached the strap to my smartphone case.
I felt the strap with my fingers.
I could feel even more of Fuyu-kun, so I felt really happy.
(I’ll take care of it.
I will definitely treasure it—)
That’s what I muttered to myself in my heart.
 
“But, you know what? You pushed yourself a bit too hard today.
We can take your rehabilitation slowly, a little at a time.
Considering what you’ve gone through today, you’ve probably been under a lot of strain.”
“Yeah.”
 
I nodded meekly.
I had made Fuyu-kun worry about me.
I felt bad about that, I really did, but you know what, Fuyu-kun? 
 
“But it’s okay.
Because you’ll be there for me, right, Fuyu-kun?”

“Well, I’ll do as much as I can.”
“That’s more than enough.
When you’re here, Fuyu-kun, I feel like I can breathe just fine.
 
Straight to the point.
And it’s true.
That is what I really feel.
When Fuyu-kun is with me, it becomes easier for me to breathe.
And, instead of responding to what I said with words, Fuyu-kun squeezed my hand.
I could feel his presence even more.
 
Sorry, Fuyu-kun.
But also, thank you.
I can breathe because you’re here.
 
I wanted to tell him that over and over again.
 
 
■■■
 
 
I sat in a daze on my bed, looking at the phone strap.
I’ve been doing this ever since I got back.
 
Being able to feel Fuyu-kun’s presence more makes me feel happy.
I heard that he had his part-time job today, so I tried refraining from sending him LINK messages, though I did really want to tell him “thank you” over and over again.
 
Fuyu-kun had gradually come to play a bigger and bigger part in my life. 
And, on top of that, I was also aware of the fact that I was gradually becoming more selfish.
—Suddenly, I got a notification on my phone for a LINK message.
 
“Huh?”
 
Seeing something unbelievable, I blinked in surprise.
It was a message from Fuyu-kun—
 
 
____________
 
fuyu: I’m going to go to my part-time job now.
I think I put too much strain on you today.
I’m really sorry.
Please rest well.
 
fuyu: But I think you’re amazing.
You’re really trying your best to move forward.
That being said, don’t push yourself too hard, okay?
 
____________
 
 
I suddenly realized that I had been unconsciously hugging my smartphone.
(The reason I can face forward, the reason I want to move forward—All of it is thanks to you.)
 
I quickly started to reply.
Flicking my phone screen, I desperately tried not to mistype as I endured my quickening heartbeat. 
 
I don’t want him to figure out how nervous I am or how fast my heart is beating.
I don’t even know what these emotions are—Lie.
That’s a lie.
The truth is even I recognize what these feelings are.
But, for right now, I’m fine with staying friends.
I tried to control the greedy, selfish “me.” 
 
____________
 
yuki: Thank you so much for today.
I’m okay.
However, I don’t want to worry you, so I’ll try not to overdo it.
 
yuki: Also, if you think I’m amazing for facing forward, it’s all thanks to you, Fuyu-kun.
Do your best at your part time job, okay? Make sure you don’t push yourself too hard either.
See you tomorrow.
I’m waiting for you.
 
____________
 
That’s how I replied.
I received a stamp with a dog on it saying ‘OK.’ In response, I sent him a stamp of a white cat with the words ‘fight!’ on it.
My message changed to “read,” but the conversation stopped there.

Fuyu-kun needed to get ready to go to his part-time job, so I was well aware that he wouldn’t be able to check my messages all day.
Despite that, I felt a warm feeling form in the depths of my heart.
I hugged the cell phone strap, trying to confirm that it was still there.
–And, all of a sudden, I heard some brisk, noisy footsteps coming up the staircase.
For what it’s worth, he did knock.
I smiled wryly before saying “you can come in.”
 
My door opened.
The person that appeared was my younger brother Sora, who was wearing a giant, innocent smile.
Saying he’s innocent sounds like a positive thing.
However, this year he’s just become a middle schooler, and it’s still kind of difficult to believe he really is one with how childish he is.
 
“Huh? Onee-chan, that strap is cute, isn’t it.
Did you get it from your boyfriend?”
 
He dropped this bomb of a statement on me from the middle of nowhere.
Becoming inadvertently conscious of his words, I could feel my face burning up and turning red in embarrassment.
 
“Hey, Sora, don’t tease me like that.
Fuyu-kun and I aren’t like that, okay.”
 
Listening to my words, a smirk gradually grew on Sora’s face.
 
“‘Fuyu-kun,’ huh.
Weren’t you referring to him as ‘Kamikawa-kun’ yesterday?”
“It-, it doesn’t matter what I call him, okay! I mean, we–, we’re just friends!”
“You mean for right now?”
“No! We’re just friends!”
 
As Sora watched my panicked reaction, he smiled happily.
I puffed out my cheeks and sulked in protest.
 
“Well, that’s not the main thing I was going to ask about.
Do you think you’ll be able to eat dinner again tonight? Mommy was asking about it in the family LINK group, you know?”
[TLN: He referred to his mom as kaa-chan so I used mommy idk]
“No way, really?”
 
A message really had come in, so I rushed to respond.
 
“Judging by how you’re doing, you’ll probably be able to eat right? Your mood’s been a lot better lately too.”
Sora smiled broadly—And he added something to what he was saying.
“All thanks to Fuyu-kun, huh.”
 
I could feel my face heating up again.
My face was probably completely dyed scarlet by now.
 
“Sora, stop making fun of me—”
“But you’re so happy that it’s literally written all over your face, you know?”
 
Sora left the room with a smirk.
“Heey, Soora!”
 
I moved to try to throw my pillow at him, but the door was already shut.
I never thought the day I was teased by my younger brother would ever come.
‘Still hot,’ I thought, as I felt my own cheeks and looked at the smartphone lying in my lap..
 
—-”You’re so happy that it’s literally written all over your face, you know?”
 
I couldn’t deny it since he was right.
Everyday life with Fuyu-kun beside me was something that made me really happy, and there was no replacement for it.
 
(I want to know more about Fuyu-kun.
I want to get closer to him.)
And I’ve also gradually gotten more and more selfish.
Trying to suppress these uncontrollable emotions, I tightly hugged the phone strap that Fuyu-kun gave me.
 
(I feel like my emotions are going to overflow.
I don’t think I can keep holding them back anymore—)

[TLN: sorry been a bit burnt out of life and stuff.
Didn’t help that this chapter seemed a lot longer than usual.
Ty to the people who wished me luck on the sat I did pretty well.
Oh I also changed some of the older dialogue because I realized that I didn’t TL it completely accurately]

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